In two weeks Brad and I are hitting the long road to Ohio. And I am starting to freak out. I'm excited but not all at the same time. Is that normal?
I'm excited to finally move on and get started in this new phase of our lives. I'm excited for adventure. I'm excited to be able to share my testimony of the Gospel to a wider audience. I'm excited to see how peculiar Mormon's really are. I'm excited to have 1500 sq. ft. all to ourselves. I'm excited to not have a job (at least until I can find a new one). I'm excited to be in charge of cooking and grocery shopping again. I'm excited to have more time to craft and sew. I'm excited to have "decorating on a budget" projects.
But I'm not excited that I won't be able to hang out with these ladies as much anymore.
I'm not excited to leave behind the beautiful mountains I've always taken for granted.
I'm not excited to drive across the country in a car by myself. I'm not excited about all the money we'll have to spend to replace all the furniture we've had to sell or get rid of. I'm not excited to be responsible and pay real bills. I'm not excited about student loans and unimaginable amounts of debt.
I'm not excited to miss out on my nieces and nephews growing up. Especially this little guy that will be born in October.
So while there are good/great things about this move, it is also hard. So hard. I'm not even gone yet and I'm already getting home sick.
(Jean, sorry I stole 2 of your pictures... love you!)
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I'm sad to see you leave too, but this is going to be such an amazing experience! I am so excited for you!
Whoah! Did I know you were pregnant? If so, I had apparently forgotten. :) I bet things will be great in Ohio!
Aliese,
I'm not pregnant... that's my sister who is pregnant (we just look a lot alike).
Good luck with the move. It's definitely an adjustment but living away from family, especially a sister/sisters you're close to is quite an adjustment. I think Melissa and I are still going through withdrawals from not seeing each other.
This is normal. I've done it more than I would wish. But it's very normal. And you can drive across the country. No prob. I made the mistake of doing it in WINTER! Summer road trips cross country were my favorite family vacations. By yourself should be pretty awesome, too. And the nieces and nephews part? Oh, do I hear you. And the 7 who all lived close to me (in 2 families) 4-8 hours further away from me by the end of the week. Change can be so hard.
Good luck jess! It's too bad change has to be so nerve racking! =)
1500 sq feet? wow! our whole place would probably fit in your living room.
Your post brought tears to my eyes. I am going to miss you SO MUCH. Love you Jess!
Amen. Love you.
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